A dick joke, Bi-polar awareness, pre-dawn runs, Jack Reacher & The Maze Runner

Q: What happened to the chinese man who walked into a wall with a boner? 

A: He smashed his his nose.

Always lead with a joke. 

So bi-polar awareness. I am trying to be a little more out spoken about being bipolar. Normally I keep it to myself and just let people judge me as some weirdo...but lately I have been telling people I am bipolar. Now a lot of people say they are...but if you have never experienced a rapid cycling, then you have no idea how painful it is. Imagine being on a roller coaster with no lap bar to keep you in. You go up and down and up and down and you have zero control of it. You just try to hang on for dear life and hope that it ends soon. My episodes sometimes last for days, other times they only last minutes. It's a feeling like wanting to cry, masturbate, laugh manically at everything, and wanting to run a marathon at the same time. It sounds fun, but it is very scary. I have a long history of suicidal thoughts and part of the reason I run is because it calms me down. It is not my therapy, it is part of my medication. A small cog to the whole machine. I had a rapid cycling episode yesterday...it wasnt pretty...but then I started to play the piano and smoke a little and it all went away. Pot is wonderful. I am on actual medication also, but it doesn't always work as it needs to. Some days I am a zombie and other days I feel nothing.

Pre-dawn runs are difficutl for me. I forced myself up and onto the road this morning with Billy, but it is just so hard to go outside when it is still dark out. I hate running in my normal glasses and I cant see anything if I dont run with some kind of glasses. I need to get online and order a pair of prescription glasses that change color. Maybe I will do that today. 

I have been reading quite a bit lately. I have burned through 4 books in a little over a week. I tried to read one Jack Reacher novel, and I just couldn't do it. It was so predictable and boring. The plot line had been done a million times before. Picture this...gritty wanderer who is ex military comes into a town and his first decision is always correct and he solves a crime because he is outside the law and doesn't have to follow procedure so he can get rough with people and kill people and he gets the hot girl and they bang all the time....sound familiar? No thanks.

The gf and I went to see the Maze Runner this past weekend. It actually wasn't too bad. It looked cool. The storyline was pretty far fetched, but it was original kind of. The movie 100% ended to set up a sequel, which is fine. I will probably go see the next one also.

Brookfield Zoo 5k...not a run Id do again.

So yesterday was the Brookfield Zoo RunRun, or whatever they call it. This is the one that my work paid for and they paid for the "fun run" portion.
There were so many kids and strollers that there was literally no point in trying to run. I would have been dodging and bobbing and weaving around people the entire run...and I hate runs like that.  I just feel like I accomplish nothing.
My buddy from work ran it as well and he said the same thing even though he was running the entire time. He covered almost 4 miles in a 3.1 race. That is how much zigzagging was needed.

Today is my 2 year anniversary with my gf. It is pretty amazing.

Brookfield Zoo RunRun 5k, a solid 4 this morning, and Maze Runner

Quick post before I leave work for the day. I should have done this earlier so I had more time...but I forgot...and Im HOOKED on this new book series "The Silo Saga".

Sunday I am running a 5k with a work friend at the zoo...so that should be fun, but Im guessing my time will be shite because there are so many turns and twists..Im used to running flat and straight for the most part.

Billy and I had a solid 4 miles this morning. I really need to up my runs to 5 miles because 4 miles is just too easy now.

Tonight the lady and I are going to see the Maze Runner...the movie looks OK. I wanted to read the book first, but I have so many other books on my plate right now.

Dark mornings make for no motivation

Now that the seasons are slowly changing, I am finding it to be difficult to get out in the morning to run before the sun is up. Normally I dont mind getting out when the sun just came up...but doing 1/2 of my run before the sun even begins to make an appearance just doesn't sound like fun to me. I need to either change that mindset or start running after work. I am going to give that a go today me thinks. The GF has trial team practice, so that leaves me and the Billy alone to do whatev's. He really needs to be run. We are looking to sign him up for a Doggy Daycare place to hopefully wear his ass out one day a week.

Im back baby!

Did a solid 4 miler on Saturday morning with Billy. It felt great. My pace was up and down, but I finished right around 40minutes. Everything felt good. I was a bit sore on Sunday, but today(Monday) I feel fine. I did not go run this morning because the weather was a bit grey and it was dark out. I need to either buy a pair of glasses I can run with in the AM or learn to run with my normal glasses, which I hate. I wonder if the website where I get my glasses from does transitions....I will have to look today.
Hopefully going to get out tomorrow for a few miles. Since the weather is changing and it is darker in the morning it is going to take quite a bit of willpower to lace them up and hit the streets.

Tomorrow, we run...tomorrow night, we Riot

Tomorrow morning will make 5 full days of rest. I haven't run once other than to get out of the way of a cab. I have walked to and from work, which is a little over 2 miles round trip and my legs feel fine. So tomorrow I will go out to do 3 miles, but I might do 5 depending on how I feel and how the first 3 go. Really it all comes down to how the first mile feels. I think Ill be okay.

Riot Fest is this weekend. We are going tomorrow. The gf has a few bands she really wants to see, and I want to see the Wu Tang Clan and Taking Back Sunday. It should be fun. We went last year and it was gross. It rained really hard the morning of so everything was mud. The weather forcast for tomorrow is sunny and in the 60's. So hopefully the weather follows the script.

Registered for the Hot Chocolate 15k

Pretty excited to be running this race this year. I did it last year and it was OK. I prefer races that give out medals...and this one gives our a tech hoodie AND a cool chocolate bar medal...so this should be fun!